Nothing is going to succeed unless you prepare. So I did what everyone who is about to do something like this would do, I had a pepperoni pizza. I think well when I am full. Seriously, prep or fail and so I cleared out a big enough space in the unfinished portion of my basement, gave away all of the food in my pantry that will not conform to the program, and called the YMCA to check on open swim times.
I talked to my family and friends and told them I was again going to lose weight and get healthier. They were supportive but all were skeptical. This is not my first “prom” and the band has never played the last song for me. I also figured that I cannot lose over 250 pounds no matter how long I give myself. That is just delayed procrastination. I can (I hope) wake up and defeat the day ahead of me. In time and with some success I can work on a goal for a week. I think that if I go much farther than that I am just setting myself up for what defeated me in the past. Raise your hand if you have ever been on a diet. Keep your hand up if you have ever made a deal with yourself that I can have this cookie and later (that never comes) cut back the day before weigh in. Me too.
It does not make us bad people it just makes us human.
The toughest part of this will be not allowing me to make deals and lie to myself. If you have never done this on a diet then you are a better person then me. Also, I need to really ask myself before I eat or drink something two questions. First, am I hungry or just filling time or using food as a form of love? (I am not going to get into the psychology of replacements for love. Let us just say it happens and move on.)
Second, is this the appropriate thing to eat or drink? Here again I can make a deal with the devil and justify why I want a cola or burger but I have to make a choice and when it is working the correct one. It is when I get down or the weight loss starts to level off or even worse I lose a good amount and I think I can handle a little cheating. I am no fool but I have been fooling myself for years. You do not get this fat by accident, I did this to myself and I can get out of this mess by doing the same thing that got me here only in reverse.
Finally I know I cannot do this alone. The toughest thing for a person to do is ask for help. Pride has killed more than anything when it comes to weight loss in my opinion. I’m not asking for anything but the truth. So if you’re reading this and know what it is like, drop me a note. Tell me your truth and let’s see what we can do. It does not matter if it is a pound or a ton the truth will set us free.
The beast is at the door. April 1st is but a few days away and this train is boarding now. I hope you enjoy the ride and if you get something from it that will help. Then the ticket to ride is on me. In case you’re wondering I did have a farewell to pepperoni pizza and it was delicious. My next one is at 100 pounds down. Carrot, stick, sensory memory, common folks work with me.